Story Book Meadows Healing & Wellness Center

Last week I learned some very important life lessons from the ranch. I’d like to share them with you.

I’ve always prided myself on taking all the precautions and going above and beyond what most people would do to keep our animals safe on our property. Yes you could say type A, perfectionist and obsessive about their safety. I spent thousands of dollars when we built this farm five years ago to put non-climb wire with a board on top around the entire perimeter of our 50 acre ranch. And for the last few years I lived in this place of knowing our dogs could not escape this large yard I had created for them. They loved to run, chase squirrels and whatever else crossed their paths. I felt secure in my little bubble that they were safe. Well that bubble burst with a loud pop last Tuesday morning when some animal in our woods ran and all five of our little black and white Jack Russells ran after the critter. The animal had dug a hole under the wire fence and it knew to run out that escape hole. Unfortunately, the dogs were right on it’s tail and ran through the escape hole right after it. As I hurried after them calling (more like screaming) at the top of my lungs, I could hear their yips as they ran deeper into the woods hot on the trail of whatever they were chasing. Jack Russells are hunters after all, but of my five, really only two of them were authentic at it. The others just followed the pack. As I stood at the fence calling and calling with no result, Seth (the doberman who is way too big to go under the fence) and I could no longer hear them. I went from annoyed to angry pretty quickly. It was about 10 am and I had just lost all of my little dogs.

I had lost these same five a few weeks ago in the same manner when they went under the fence chasing four deer. They had all returned about 30 minutes apart within a total of 2 hours. So at this point, I was predicting their staggered return and although I was concerned, I wasn’t panicking.

About 30 minutes later, Sheba showed up and ran to me all happy and very dirty. I had no idea where she had come from since I was still standing near the hole they’d gone out and she hadn’t come back in that way. Obviously there was more than one hole they were coming in and out from. I took her and Seth to the wash rack and gave them both a bath. While I was doing that, Zoe arrived back at the barn with blood all over her. I brought her into the wash rack and bathed her looking for the source of the blood. It was easy to determine as the blood poured out of a tear in her ear. I tried bandaging it but that didn’t work and eventually it did stop bleeding. Her ear was split in two. After I put those three into their yard, I went back out to the race track where our woods start and continued to yell and honk the golf cart horn trying to help them find their way home. With hundreds of acres of woods behind us, I knew there was a good chance they could get lost or hurt out there. After about another hour of that with no results, I had to leave to go to the feed store. I left the field gate open hoping they would return on their own.

When I returned from buying feed, Tyler was back at the yard gate. I hoped that Candy and Puddles would be close behind. I was getting worried because they were not hunters and I wasn’t sure they would find their way home. Candy, after all, had done this before since she was lost when I adopted her as a stray 8 years ago. As the hours passed with no sight of them, I started to drive around the block every hour to see if they had come out of the woods anywhere. Still there was no sight of them. I ran off fliers and dropped one in each mail box of those on our street so anyone seeing the dogs would know where they lived. By dark I was panicked. My little dogs did not know how to spend the night in the woods. There were coyotes, wild hogs, bobcats and who knows what else. I was thankful at least that it wasn’t to be a cold night. Gary and I prayed continuously and I sent our prayer request to all those I knew. I looked at the two empty beds where they slept each night and I felt very sad, like a piece of me was missing.

As I lay in bed that night I thought about families whose children have been lost or stolen. I wondered how they could bear it. Although these two are only dogs, they are my family and we love them. I have never had children and my animals have filled that void. How much worse would it be to not know where your child is. To imagine all the horrors that they could encounter out on their own. I realized I had thought I was keeping them safe with my fencing and protected environment but I also had to admit, I had seen a few holes over the last few weeks but had not taken the steps to fill them in and maintain the ‘fortress’. I had gotten lazy about protecting them. I had just figured they wouldn’t go out the holes because they don’t dig. I had forgotten about the influence of the world outside their yard. There had been a warning to me when they had escaped chasing the deer a few weeks ago but I had ignored that warning. I thought about how many times in our lives we try to keep our children, our animals, our lives safe but we don’t always take the necessary steps to do just that. We find it easier to just go along with what everyone else is doing instead of listening to our own intuition and the voice of God. I’d been warned to take the necessary steps for their safety, but I hadn’t listened. And now, I was feeling guilty, scared and worried. I loved them both but Puddles was my favorite. I was feeling guilty because I was thinking if only Puddles would come home, I’d be okay with that. It was a long and restless night.

In the morning, I looked outside hopeful that I would see two little dogs waiting by the yard, but they weren’t there. We attached fliers to the STOP signs on all the roads around our property. I started cruising the roads again. I put fliers in all the feed stores, HITS, and the Kwik King’s. I headed to the pound to give them a picture of the two and give them their micro chip numbers so if anyone turned them in they could call me immediately. As I drove down Hwy. 27 my phone rang. It was Gary. “Do you believe in miracles?” he asked me. “Absolutely”, I answered.

“Puddles is home!” he informed me, “I came out of the house and there she was sitting at the gate to the yard”. I cannot describe the overwhelming joy I felt. Tears started pouring down my face as I thanked God for being so merciful. I had begged Him to show Puddles the way home. She had survived one night in the forest and had found her way back home. I was sure Candy would be close behind her but I continued onto the pound to report her still missing just in case. As I toured the pound and looked into the faces of all those hopeful dogs I felt so bad that their owners didn’t want them or hadn’t come to claim them. Candy was not there and she had not been reported as found. On my way home, I placed more fliers in feed stores, tack stores and Publix, hoping someone would pick her up, see a flier and call me.

When I got home I was so excited to see Puddles. She seemed a little distant and disoriented but was happy to be back. She gave kisses and rolled over looking for my love. I wondered when I had started taking these guys for granted. I wondered when I’d started to live so much in the future and all my grand plans that I’d stopped appreciating each moment I shared with them. I wondered when I had stopped living every moment to the fullest and enjoying the here and now with each of them and the horses and my husband. Now is really all we can ever be sure of. I finally understood that life could change in a moment and that we should live in such a way that there are no regrets. God has given us this moment and we never know what will come next. As I make my plans, God directs my steps. Finally, I understood how to truly appreciate each and every moment of my life. I knew I should call my elderly parents more often. I needed to stay in phone contact with friends and other family. In this day of texting and emails everything has become so impersonal. But any moment could be the last one you have to spend with a loved one. I wondered if Candy knew I loved her.

Just after feeding that Wednesday night I got a phone call from a person down the road. He told me he’d seen Candy at 5:30 that morning on someone’s lawn near his home. Even though it was twelve hours later, I jumped in the truck and headed to where he’d seen her and called and called but she was nowhere to be found. I drove back home in the dark not knowing if someone had picked her up or if she had gone back into the woods still trying to make her way home. She was obviously disoriented and lost. I realized that by keeping them in my protected bubble I had not prepared them for life outside their yard. They didn’t know how to find their way home. I decided then that I would start taking them for walks down the road and around the neighborhood so they would learn how to find their way home if this ever happened again. I think it was the not knowing that was so disturbing. Had Candy been picked up and was enjoying herself in someone’s home? Was she still lost in the woods and trying to find her way back? Was she lying dead somewhere in the woods? We kept praying for her safety and health and return. So many people were praying for her that I knew God was listening. But fear was in my heart.

By Thursday morning and still no Candy my optimism was starting to waiver. I had canceled all visitors to the ranch. The other dogs were restricted to the yard while we worked on boarding up all the holes around the 50 acre perimeter. Something that should have been done weeks ago. I couldn’t help thinking it was like “shutting the barn door after the horse had run out”. I was equally begging God for her safe return and praising Him for bringing her home. I wanted to harden my heart and tell myself I didn’t care what happened to her just so the pain and fear would stop. I had posted fliers everywhere, called the pound and the Humane Society and I didn’t know what else I could do. Then around 4pm I received a phone call. My heart jumped with hope. But the lady who called just informed me that she had seen Candy on the side of the road in the same area as the other man at 2pm on Wednesday afternoon. She was heading to the HITS show and had wondered why she was out there all alone. I asked her why she didn’t pick her up and her reply was she didn’t want to get attached to any more animals. I understood her emotions but I wondered why someone seeing a lost little dog wouldn’t pick her up to keep her safe and take her to the pound. Any owner having lost a dog will always check the pound first. But the lady had left her there and when she returned two hours later she said she didn’t see her again. This time I took the golf cart around the neighborhood honking the horn hoping she was still hiding in the bushes somewhere. I got calls from people who offered to come out and help me search. It was so amazing the kindness of strangers when I asked them to keep an eye out for her. As I drove around I couldn’t help but think of Matthew 18:12-13 “If a man owns a hundred sheep, and one of them wanders away, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hills and go to look for the one that wandered off? And if he finds it, truly I tell you, he is happier about that one sheep than about the ninety-nine that did not wander off. In the same way your Father in heaven is not willing that any of these little ones should perish”. If I could never give up on finding Candy, how much more determination does God have to save all of those who are lost? I gained a totally new perspective on the urgency of helping those who are lost to see the light. But darkness came again and still we had not found Candy.

I will admit by Friday morning I was filled with fear. Candy, it seemed wasn’t coming home. I was finally in that place, where as they say “the rubber meets the road” in my faith. My heart said God was big enough to do this and “All things are possible”. But my head was telling me after four days, the chances of her coming home were slim. I had done everything that I could and now it was up to God. I happened to watch Creflo Dollar that morning on TV as he talked about fear. He taught that when you have fear about one area of your life it is because you’ve stopped believing God for that area of your life. I had to think for a moment about why I was feeling so fearful. I did believe God could bring Candy home after all that was easy for Him, but the fear was because there was a question in my heart, “Did I truly believe God would do this for me?” This was what was causing the fear. I immediately prayed to stop the torment of the enemy on my mind and the fear lifted. I told God I did believe He would do this for me and I knew in order to move this mountain, I had to truly believe in my heart…….and so I did. I meditated for the rest of the day on scripture Mark 11:22-24 “if you say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and do not doubt in your heart but believe that what you say will happen, it will be done for you. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

Friday evening just after feeding as it was getting dark, my cell phone rang. “I think I have your dog” said the voice at the other end of the line. I started to cry from the relief and joy of her words. She gave me directions, Gary and I drove the five miles to their home and I held my breath as we got out of the truck. In her arms was my sweet Candy. As I took her into my arms, she covered my face in kisses. She too seemed disoriented and shocked but she was so happy to be back with her mom. The couple told us the story of how Candy came to be with them. She had traveled down our road to the far end about two miles. When their grandson had gotten off the school bus on Wednesday afternoon, Candy had followed him home but it was on the intersecting road and we had not put fliers down that road. I had not imagined she would have gone so far. Candy had then been taken to the grandmother’s home. When she had driven back over to see her daughter and was returning home, she finally saw the flier I had put on the stop sign at 115th and CR 326. That was Friday night and she’d called me right away. So in truth, Candy had only spent one night in the woods and had been well looked after since then. We brought her home, removed a couple of ticks, gave her a bath since she was full of fleas and watched her reunite with her children. (She is the mother of the other four JR dogs we have).

Candy & Puddles

Once our little family was safe again in the house that night, we knelt down and thanked God for bringing her safely home. And in my heart I felt a soft voice asking me “Why did you doubt Me?” I knew that this lesson from our ranch would stay with me whenever other storms headed our way in the future.

The next morning, I started teaching myself how to stay “present” in each moment and to enjoy the day as it unfolded and to praise God for it! I had learned that the safety of my world was only by the grace and mercy of our Lord Jesus. And I learned that all the ‘head knowledge’ I had from sitting in church each week was not the faith that the bible speaks of. I learned that my personal relationship with Jesus and my ‘heart knowledge’ is really what makes the difference. God hears our prayers and if you really believe in your heart, without doubt, He will move mountains.

Blessings to all from our family,
Gary & Trish
Candy, Puddles, Tyler, Zoe, Sheba, Seth

This is my story. For those of you who know me well, you know I suffered a bad head injury in August of 2003. A horse trailer drop down window dropped down on my head causing a compression of the C-5 vertebrae of my neck. For months I was fuzzy, incoherent and unable to do my daily chores of looking after 40 horses on my thoroughbred farm. Then on December 24th of that same year I was riding (you can’t keep a horse woman on the ground) when my horse let out a huge buck (my error) and I endured a total whiplash. The pain of all 44 muscles in my neck being torn (I was unable to hold up my head without support), was indescribable. So I took a lot of pain meds and had to close down my business. By selling part of our farm in 2005 and rebuilding on our existing acreage, the next two years went by in a blur of constant work I couldn’t do, pain, non-stop chiropractor appointments and several trips to neurologists to try to find relief from my neck injuries.

Although the whiplash had healed, I was always in pain, sometimes severe enough that I would spend days on the couch with ice packs, and other times just an annoying ache that never really went away. I couldn’t lift anything anymore (this coming from a woman who could unload 40 bags of feed from her truck alone in about 5 minutes), I couldn’t clean stalls or hammer boards or do any of the things I’d always done around the farm. I could no longer lead a thoroughbred because if they pulled, my right shoulder and neck could not take the strain and I would have to let them go. I couldn’t ride anymore because the pain would last for days afterwards. I had spent hours and hours going for chiropractic treatments and thousands of dollars to get relief that would only last a day or two but never really got to the problem. The neurologist said my neck was perfectly normal for a 48 year old. (I looked at him and wondered how any doctor could say that with a straight face to someone in as much pain as I was). I spent thousands of dollars more on acupuncture treatments that would help ease the pain enough that at least I could do normal daily chores. But the worst of this journey of injury and pain was the depression.

As a Christian, I knew my hope was in Christ but I had to wonder where He was. Each morning I would wake up with severe depression and tears running down my face. I would pretend everything was okay to get through the day but the hopelessness endured. Through all of this, I could hear God’s calling for me to start a ministry with horses and I tried. I would take the steps of obedience but the depression would catch up with me. I thought it was hormone imbalance, I thought it was from the pain. I thought I could just read God’s Word and get over it, but it was still there each morning. I asked the doctor for help and they prescribed anti-depressants which I threw away. I knew that wasn’t the answer. I spent many sleepless nights watching the clock all night long getting no sleep at all then having to go through the next day. I put on several workshops and welcomed guests to the ranch having had no sleep at all the night before. I went to the doctor for help and they prescribed sleeping pills. I tried those because I was desperate to get some sleep but they didn’t keep me asleep through the pain throbbing in my neck. So I went back to the doctor and explained they weren’t working because of the pain and they prescribed Celebrex for pain. So I took them and the pain was reduced enough to sleep but my stomach got upset and my depression worsened. I could no longer welcome friends to my home because I never knew when I would have a good day or a bad day. My husband stood by me and took on all of my work through those trying times but he never truly understood what I was going through. Neither did friends and family. There were days I no longer liked myself.

I was ready to quit so many times. I wanted to close down Story Book because I couldn’t do it alone in this state of health. But I could hear God telling me NO that there were trials we had to endure and our faith had to grow. He was with me yet I couldn’t always find Him. So I spoke words of defeat and felt defeated all the while knowing I still believed Jesus would deliver my healing. But I am not a patient person so I would study patience knowing that was my lesson to be learned at His feet. So instead of quitting Story Book, I signed up with iPEC Coaching to become a Life Coach knowing I wanted to help others with the trials they would go through. I wanted to be equipped to Empower, Engage and Evolve others through the teaching of the horses and the Holy Spirit here on the ranch. I struggled through the training still in pain and with cloudy thinking many days. I knew I couldn’t go any further until I found the healing that Jesus promised each of us.

Previously I had begged for healing, I had cried, I had been very pitiful. But this time I got on my knees and told God I was angry at him. He could heal me but He wasn’t. At 51 was my life really over? Was this all that was left for the rest of my life? I wanted a miracle. I wanted the parting of the Red Sea. I wanted my life back. I wanted to use the horses to help people. I wanted to share the Blessings God had given me with others. But I needed healing first.

But His miracles never come about in the way that we expect. And my miracle was there waiting for me all the time through all those years of pain and suffering. He just had to lead me there in His timing. In May of 2009 we had started holding Fellowships at the Pond through our church and because of that gathering I met another wonderful Canadian woman, Micheline, who had also had a neck injury falling off a horse a few years ago. We bonded, as people who have shared in the same type of suffering do, and became friends. Over the next year we shared our stories of attempted healing with chiropractors and she continued to look for an answer. Her symptoms were somewhat worse. Although she wasn’t in the pain I was in, she would suffer seizures and stroke like symptoms and her life, like mine was unpredictable because we couldn’t count on our health. Then one day she told me about a different type of chiropractor, one that was trained in NUCCA which is the National Upper Cervical Chiropractic Association. She went for a free consultation and found out that this technique involved adjusting the C-1 Axis (the top bone of the vertebrae) and that once it was adjusted, the rest of the spine just fell into place. It sounded too simple to be true. So she went for her initial x-rays to see where her neck was deviated. When the chiropractor studied the measurements of her C-1 he found she was out and twisted by 1 1/2 degrees. He adjusted her while I watched and I observed Micheline’s miracle. By moving and untwisting her C-1 that little amount, the pressure was taken off the nerve and she has since not been back for another treatment and has not had another seizure. She bought a motorcycle and is now living her life to the fullest!

With new hope in my heart, I booked an appointment for myself. When he took x-rays of my C-1 he found it twisted to the right (where I carried all of my pain) by 8 1/2 degrees and also twisted up on the left side so I was not level. Whether it was the trailer door falling on my head, the whiplash, the time I fell off a motor scooter and got knocked out without a helmet on, the fall off a galloping horse when I was in my twenties and got knocked out again with no helmet on or the very first bad fall off a horse when I was sixteen, I don’t know how the bone in my neck moved so far. But with a ten minute adjustment and a day of reaction to the bone moving that far back into alignment, I was finally free of pain. The C-1 bone is the base of the brain stem so not only was it realigned to relieve the pain, but the cloudy thinking, the depression and the inability to reason at times was also completely healed. It has now been two weeks since my miracle. Dr. Thomas has been in business for years. He was there all along. It just took God’s intricate leading to get me to his office.

HOW AMAZING IS OUR GOD? I want to dance in the streets and yell from the mountaintops that I am healed. I will have my life again and continue the calling on my life using horses to help people find truth. I’m sure I’ll knock that bone out again, but now I have the answer to put it right back in.

If you have suffered with neck pain or injury, please don’t hesitate to go and see Dr. Thomas. He is a Christian who is working God’s miracles on a daily basis. His office number is 352-245-6169. His procedure is very non-evasive and gentle.

As for me, I’m ready to go forward with God’s Ministry here at the Ranch. There is a miracle just around the corner for each and every one of us. It just takes faith, truth and persistence to watch it manifest in your life. NEVER GIVE UP, there is always hope. Watch for future emails and blogs about upcoming events, workshops and ways to help at-risk teens here at Story Book Meadows.

We love you all,

Trish & Gary

I was walking through the center aisle of the cement barn at about 10am on May 1st when I noticed a flutter of movement in one of the stalls. There were no horses in the barn and I had already finished the morning chores. A slight breeze was blowing through the aisle and the temperature was about 75 degrees. It was an absolutely beautiful spring morning.

As I looked inside the stall, I was surprised to see four baby birds attempting to fly off the floor of one of the stalls. They must have come from the bird house that was hanging under the eaves at the end of the barn. I could imagine them standing on the edge of the perch and trying their wings for the first time; flapping as hard as they could but not able to accomplish full flight. Somehow all four baby birds had found their way into the stall and with tiny wings they were trying their

 

The birdhouse

hardest to  fly. They did not seem to be able to rise more than a few inches off the ground before they would nose dive and resume running through the shavings. Each would take a try then run back to their siblings and huddle in a corner. They were so small I was thankful they had not been on the floor when the dogs had been running freely while I was feeding the horses. The Jack Russel’s are such good hunters I knew they would have pounced on these little babies and killed them. It appeared our Father in Heaven had been watching over them when they left their nest that morning. But isn’t that just what the Bible says; that He cares for every creature?

I watched in fascination as Mom flew into the stall through the grills in the window and brought a long dangling worm to feed her babies. The four lifted their mouths to receive her tasty morsel and in an instant the worm was gone. Mom flew back out the window and the little birds continued their attempts to fly. Minutes later, Mother bird once again flew through the window with another worm. I watched them continue this routine for quite a few minutes hoping to see the babies gain confidence and the ability to fly on their own. I was so happy that Mom had been able to find them in this new place and that she had not abandoned them since they were no longer safe in the little birdhouse. She was encouraging them and watching over them while they learned to be independent. But after awhile it was obvious that they weren’t strong enough yet. So looking down at them all piled together in the far corner of the stall, I closed and latched the door to keep them safe from any predators that would be coming through the barn, including my dogs.

Throughout the day I checked on their progress but each time I visited the stall they were still huddled in one corner or another. I didn’t see Mom again but they all looked healthy and content. As I watched them for a few minutes I thought of all the dangers that could have come upon them while they were unable to fly. I wondered what would have happened to them had they not found this safe haven, this place where someone was watching out for them until they were fully able to fly for themselves. I wondered if they knew about the dangers that were out there, dangers they were unable to flee from at this moment.

I felt the Lord speak to my heart as I was watching those tiny birds. He spoke to me of our role, as caring Christians, to help shield all the little ones who come into our lives, whether for a moment or a lifetime. We are all called to shield them from dangers they aren’t even aware of, during the times when their own parents aren’t able to. We are to do what we can to protect them from danger, and teach them skills that will help them take care of themselves. Often we see children or youth going through troubled times, or we see them acting out and we walk away shaking our head.  But we have a chance to reach those troubled children and teens. A chance to teach them and help them find their way. The youth of today are the leaders of tomorrow. Our own futures depend on our youth growing up strong and dependable and courageous. And as the Lord showed me my role through these little baby birds, my heart swelled with thankfulness that He had created this ministry at Story Book Meadows, and that I had the privilege of being a substitute, if only for a short time, for Moms and Dads that couldn’t teach their children the things that God was teaching them through the horses. He was teaching them things about love, relationships, trust, self confidence, honor and integrity. I was honored that He had chosen me for such an important role and humbled that He felt I was worthy. I was thankful that I had such an opportunity to share the love of Christ with each little person that arrived here at the Ranch.

Baby Birds

By the afternoon of the next day the birds were all gone. They had learned to soar high above the ground and no longer needed the protection our barn offered. I was disappointed that their visit had been so short but I knew there would be another lost one needing our help and protection one day and I was looking forward to that day. Not being a bird watcher, it occurred to me that I didn’t even know what kind of birds they had been, then I realized, it didn’t matter because all little ones are precious in His sight.

Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these.”    Mark 10:14

There was a message to me from the ranch that day, it was a message about caring!

Blessings to all,

Trish Carlo